I've fallen(off the mommy bandwagon) and I can't get up!!

Last week my Elementary school kids were going on a field trip..all three of them so instead of my usual stop at the store to get them lunch, I decided to make their lunch for them. They requested musubi (if you wanna know what that is you can check it out on this blog). That was easy, I can do that...so I got up the next morning at six to start the cooking. While I was in there making their lunch, my daughter Steph poked her head in the kitchen and eyes wide opened she said, "you're making breakfast?" She made it sound like that was something unheard of, me making breakfast. In fact she even pointed out that is something I never do so for me to be making breakfast so early in the morning is shocking to her.

That totally stunned me there for a minute. Have I never really made breakfast for the kids that my daughter seeing me in the kitchen cooking so early in the morning is surprising for her? I had to do quick rewind into the last seventeen years and tried to remember when was the last time I stood in my kitchen to make breakfast for them. And you know something, she was absolutely right. I hardly make breakfast.

I am not a morning person, have always been that way so breakfast was never that important to me. I would rather sleep than getting up to eat breakfast. It was so much more important to me to catch the last few minutes of the early morning sleep than to bother with the morning rituals of breakfast. And so I guess I just carried it over onto my marriage and parenthood. Yes! I know!! Breakfast is the most important meal of the day but who cares? I certainly don't or didn't.

Why are you looking at me that way? I do feed my kids breakfast. I made sure we have cereal for them to eat. On the week days, I had them eat at school. Hey the food is a lot more nutritional and way cheaper. On the weekends, I feed them cold cereal...ok so on special occasion I made breakfast but it's more like brunch. And on those days where there are no school, Steph is usually the one who takes over the kitchen, the cooking part at least.

See how far I've fallen off that mommy bandwagon? I have been neglecting my kids. Just last week, my eight grader had a field trip and again, since I usually go to the store to get my kids sack lunch, so I decided I was going to do the same thing, buy his lunch at the store but when we got to the there to get my son his lunch, poke which is raw tuna fish seasoned really good with rice, I came to find out that the place does not take personal checks. And that was all I had with me, a checkbook and a dollar bill so what did I do? I gave my son the dollar bill that probably could only buy candy bar and sent him on his way.

On that same day, the elementary school had a super citizen assembly and my son who is in sixth grade was chosen as super citizen for the month. They were also going on a field trip that day so sixth graders were to be first to get their recognition so they can make it to their field trip. My husband called me to let me know that but I thought I, in my prideful and all knowing attitude thought he was just trying to get me to go early so I just brushed aside what he said as a joke and went about doing some other stuff before I went to the assembly. Well, when I finally showed up at the school, the sixth graders were all lined up to go on their field trip and my son had already gotten his recognition and I missed the whole thing. See, what I mean? And those weren't the only times I've done that, there were countless others but I am too ashamed to name them all....I sincerely hope they don't end up going to therapy for the rest of their lives. So there, my confession for the weeks for my NPSA.



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